I usually don't blog about my personal life but this is important enough that I want to share it. The pics below of the lavender I bought at the Clovis Farmers Market Friday night are a symbol of where I'm at in my life, though I didn't realize it until this morning.
When I lived in the bay area, before I moved to Clovis, I had flowers in a vase at my place practically every week. I'd buy them at the grocery store, farmers market and other places, how can one not be happy when they see flowers?
I'm in such a good place right now that for the first time since I moved to Clovis, I instinctively bought the lavender. Not only do I smile when I see it, the fragrance is wonderful and very soothing. I can honestly say that this is the happiest I've been in my life and it's a choice I've made, to be happy. To me, now, it's the simple things in life that make me happy, such as a vase of flowers, visiting and talking to friends and family, crafting, volunteering and playing with dogs & cats.
In order to be able to make the choice of happiness for myself, I've been traveling down a long road these past years. I've gone through alot of hurt and pain in dealing with issues and along the way had the support of good friends and counseling to see me through. Obviously it's not pleasant dealing with the pain and hurt but it's part of the journey to be able to get to the place where I can make the choice to be happy. I can honestly say it's well worth the journey!!
I strongly believe that happiness comes from within, it's not the material things that makes one happy, such as the big house, a car, flat screen tv's, etc.
I've been thinking alot about a conversation I had with Larry and it went something like this "so how are you doing Kristen?" I said with a big grin on my face "I'm doing great, I'm really happy with my life right now". He said "that's amazing considering you don't have a job, you're not in a relationship, I'm moving to a very small studio, etc." It took me a second to understand what he was saying and then he said "You've made a choice to be happy" and it brought tears to my eyes.
Life is grand and I hope you all are enjoying the simple things in your life.